I looked at that handsome face one more time, kissed him on the little mole between his eyebrows, and told him the next time I would kiss him would be in Glory. In faith, I turned and walked away, knowing that my Savior would lead me. ~Terri M. Stellrecht
For those of us who have lost children, our minds hold on to that "last moment" we looked into our child's face. My last moment was of a tiny sleeping face. I rocked Sarah to sleep and laid her in her crib. For Terri Stellrecht that last glimpse was looking into the face of Trent before they closed his casket.
On Friday, February 18, 2011, God did the unthinkable in their lives in choosing to take Rob and Terry's 12-year-old son, Trent, home to heaven in a skiing accident. Terri says, "It is only considered the unthinkable because our plans are not God's plans, and our ways are not God's ways." In her book, How My Savior Leads Me, Terri tells the story of their tragedy.
Terri's book wasn't an easy book for me to read. It tugged at the place in my heart graced by Sarah's memory. But even in a heart-place occupied by the sunshine of a dark-eyed angel it brought memories of the first few months of my personal tragedy, and gently reminded me I'm not alone.
Terri's writing included contrasts -- from a point of one of the greatest pains a parent can face, to another of following Jesus through the grief journey, rose an arc connecting them in the form of a rainbow. It's an honest story of struggle, of a mother's grief, but most of all, a reliance on the leading of our Savior. Everyone's grief journey is different, but a central truth runs through them all -- either you choose to trust God or you turn your face from Him.
Whether you are walking your own journey or know of someone who is, I believe Terri's book will touch every reader. She has provided a signed copy for me to give to one of my readers. Simply leave me a comment if you wish to be entered in the giveaway. I'll choose the winner next Monday. You can read more about Terri's journey at her blog, Where My Savor Leads Me.
One of the songs used at Trent's funeral was Casting Crown's Praise You in This Storm. Terri's book authentically offers the pain of the storm -- while documenting her praise through it all.
And I'll praise You in this storm,
And I will lift my hands,
For You are who You are
No matter where I am.
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand;
You never left my side.
And though my heart is torn,
I will praise You in this storm.
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A Simple Desk Reminder
Perfect for Sheltering
1. Cut tagboard for the back the size you choose.
2. Copy hymn, All the Way My Savior Leads Me, to heavy paper.
3. Tape song to back.
4. Type, print and back words, add glitter sugar and glue to hymn.
5. Glue picture and color blocks (I used a square and circle).
6. Glue crocheted lace and crinkled seam binding ribbon to bottom.
7. Decorate. I used chiffon flowers, paper leaves, crocheted heart and a black button
8. Punch hole in right top. Using three shades of ribbon, tie bow through hole.
9. Wrap Terri's book with the desk reminder with tissue, tying with ribbon. Stick a sprig of lavender in the bow.
8. Punch hole in right top. Using three shades of ribbon, tie bow through hole.
9. Wrap Terri's book with the desk reminder with tissue, tying with ribbon. Stick a sprig of lavender in the bow.